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Tuesday, September 14, 2004

4:46PM - *i miss u so much bhavin*

well today is one month. i cant believe that thats all its been. it definitely feels like much longer. the last few nights havent been to good. i have cried myself to sleep evernight, and just have that same imagine in my head. i thought that that night had sunk in, but i was soo wrong.i just miss you so much bhavin. i just wish i knew where u were and what u were doing. im sure ur havin fun somewhere up there, and watchin all of us below. i just feel like sometimes i still hear u in the hall. every single day i pass ur corner at least once and i just pray to god that u could come back to us. i wonder every single day every minute of u. no matter what im doing, u are somewhere in my head. it seems that everytime i talk to someone, it just reminds me of u, and some kind of memory we used to have. god do i miss those days in science(Where'd nina go!!!) go that made u laugh hard, and freshman year when we had every class together 1-8(mr.clicky pen!!) u really knew how to annoy me.but i loved u no matter what. u always knew when something was wrong and how to make me laugh. u were the one who always knew the answers to things when know one else did. you meant so much to me, i dont care what anyone says. you were one of my best friends and no ones thoughts or arugments will change that.you were my "lil bhav." i loved everything about you BHAV! haha those days when u never did ur hair, those were great, such cute lil fuzzies hehe! i miss those arms too. i know that someday i will see you again, and that time i will charish every minute, every second, with you. i wont lose you again when im with u. ive been hangin out with shaun lately, and everyday i find smething about him that reminds me of you. but god are you 2 totally different people. but those ears hehe got those same ears! everyone misses you so much bhavin. i know this has been the hardest month in so long for everyone. nothin is the same and everyday i think of a new memory we used to have. you were one of my best friends and i love you so much. i will still tell ppl if they ask me if we were friends, to make sure to say "ya best friends". i love you so much bhavin and i cant wait to see u again someday! u better not forget me hehe "i love you, bye"(4 words ill remember for the rest of my life, till the day i die...im so glad those were the last words i heard from you.)

Current mood: lonely

Current music: sonny-NFG

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Saturday, August 7, 2004

Friday, August 6, 2004

1:19PM - -tired-

last night i got to take the car,finally...(stupid brother!)i picked up catherine and mary and we took a ride to menards to look for lawn chairs...haha no luck, what a adventure. we ended up stoppin by a hotel but again nothin fun there either, catherine a.k.a. NeRvOuS NeLLy was tellin me i dindt know where i was goin the whole night but i got us where we were headed and alive too! i went on the expressway for the first time without any adults, not to shabby either. after our drives we went to culvers to visit brit, and waited for her to get off work. then we went to joe conellys for a lil bit.stupid cameron, hes always drunk...that kid i'll tell ya! then since i was drivin i couldnt drink so we left to shawns. there was soo much stupid drama there ugh i hate drama especially over stupid shit! so i had to be home by 11 with the car, so i left and the girls stayed for a while more. kinda fun kinda boring night.

i wish.i want.i'd love to be.
his love.his life.his everything.

Current mood: tired

Current music: i will-ryan cabrera

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Thursday, August 5, 2004

2:35PM - -*DoWnToWn*-

the night started off fun...me and cath took a ride to brit's in the van, i had to drive cause cath gets to scared lol.after chillin there for a lil cath took me over to concets to go downtown. me concet enza and leah went to visit stylz and roman. it was soo much fun, those guys r awesome. concet and i got to announce lil flip-sunshine. j roman kept sayin addison girls, and it was soo fun. im glad we got to go finally. we got lotz of free tickets to the bbash too!!! im excited to go on sunday, surprise guest!!! we'll have fun cath, we got to go early for some good seats. but after the studio we went to the cheesecake factory, MmMmM was that good!!! it was a fun night, and very much worth the drive (haha the semi and wall...o man concet)

Current mood: excited

Current music: collide-howie day

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Wednesday, August 4, 2004

1:49PM - FuN!

so last night me lisa brittney and bubbles drove around in a huge circle to go eat.we ended u at fridays, it was fun! on the way home i got a call from concetta that kevin deleons house got struck by lightening. that was pretty scary. so we stopped there for a lil and we got to see Kim(catherine's bro's g/f lol) in action! shes soo cute...and works with hott guys! after that i got dropped off at home. i was soo tired for some reason and went right to bed. i had a pretty good nite i guess.

so tonight im goin to the CBS building to see J.Roman and Dougie Stylz...this should be fun. i cant wait! i hope we get to be on the radio like he said(haha concet). but other then that nothin else for the day planned...so everyone listen to B96 tonight hehe...im goin to clean so i dont get in trouble. (i wish i worked.) xoxo me!

Current mood: lazy

Current music: light in your eyes-blessed union of souls

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Monday, August 2, 2004

12:41PM - -uPsEt-

-->y o u .
[x] Name: nina
[x] Nicknames: neen,bertz,neeners
[x] Screen name: glitzygrl66
[x] Sex: female
[x] Birthday: april 6
[x] Height: 5/4
[x] Hair color: brown
[x] Is your hair long or short: im gunna say long
[x] Eye color: brown
[x] City born in: hmm i always forget this
[x] Location now: a*town
[x] Siblings: ricky,michael,and i guess nick too lol
[x] Parents married/divorced: married
[x] Who are your closest friends: g.a.g.
[x] Who makes you laugh the most?: hmm, lately brittney and bobby they give me good laugh(hehe!)
[x] Who knows the most about you?: g.a.g.

--> c r u s h i n . . .
[x] Pre-School: dont member
[x] Kindergarten: ???
[x] 1st Grade: no clue this is hard
[x] 2nd Grade: ???
[x] 3rd Grade: dont remember
[x] 4th Grade: manny lol(only normal one haha)
[x] 5th Grade: manny prob
[x] 6th Grade: ...
[x] 7th Grade: mike becerra
[x] 8th Grade: same as 7th
[x] 9th grade: hmm i cant member this stinx
[x] 10th grade: mike w,then some others???
[x] 11th grade: no to sure yet
[x] 12th grade: cant wait too know
[x] Boy/girl friend status: thought i would get there, but i thought very wrong,what was i thinkin

--> o t h e r .
[x] Do you have a job: noo! damn it i want one!
[x] What are you scared of: SnAkEs! thats it!!!
[x] Most interesting thing you've done this summer: hmm,lol BIU' TIU' chill with my girls, seeing mike
[x] What store do you shop at the most: nordstrom,i dont really shop often unless its for shoes i love em lol
[x] Have you ever done any drugs: its bad for u lol BIU' TIU'
[x] Do you collect anything: i used to collect stickers
[x] Are you a ditz: i think those girls r rubbin off on me

--> f a v o r i t e s .
[x] Day of the week: sat. and just summer days
[x] Thing in your room: bed,radio!
[x] Cousin: The Neri's
[x] CD: hmm lisas cd's are the bestest!
[x] Song(s): where are you-j.roman, my happy ending-avril lavigne,pieces of me-ashlee simpson
[x] Animal: LeXiPoO!
[x] Ice cream: M&M mint swirl
[x] Drink: water,DNL,diet pepsi
[x] Thing to do: drive! hehe or sleep lol
[x] Movies of all time: what a girl wants, the terminal, the little mermaid, many more
[x] Hangout: houses-caths, lisas, britts, mardawgs, anyone elses
[x] Pizza topping: cheese/pepperoni

--> r a n d o m .
[x] Where do you see yourself in 10 years: good marriage maybe kids maybe not yet lol good job,successful
[x] If you could live anywhere: hmm not to sure yet
[x] Dream house: the one on the way to my uncles
[x] What age do you want to get married: 25-26ish
[x] How many kids do you want: twins!!! no more then 3
[x] Girl's names: alexia marie
[x] Boy's names: evan

--> h a v e y o u e v e r .
[x] Been in love?:nope
[x] Lied?: yes yes
[x] Cheated on a test?: of course!
[x] Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend?: nope
[x] Kissed with your eyes open?: noo
[x] Tied your shoes together?: not myself lol
[x] Eaten something with a lot of fat?: ya-eww

--> f e e l i n g s .
[x] Worst Feeling in the world: being alone
[x] Best feeling in the world: having ppl who love you back, and loving others
[x] Can you define love?: not till i get there
[x] Do you get along with your parents?: my mom yes almost always, dad almost never
[x] Are you ticklish?: noo...lol very!
[x] Where?: everywhere!

--> o p p o s i t e s e x .
[x] 1st thing you notice about the opposite sex: teeth,appearance
[x] Perfect "dream" date: hmm...good ?
[x] What do you look for in the opposite sex?: funny,personality,outgoing,and of course no one wants someone hideous
[x] What does the opposite sex not know about you?:whatever they dont know means they prob shouldnt know
--> n i g h t t i m e .
[x] What do you wear to bed: tshirt and boxers
[x] What's your bed time: 10 on school days lol i try and summer o god various times hehe
[x] Do you wish on stars: i gave up on that a while ago,unless its a shooting one
[x] Is there a TV in your room: yes w/ cable too hehe
[x] What's the last thing you do before you fall asleep: take my makeup off and plug in the charger to my cell
--> f r i e n d s .
[x] Person you can trust the most: g.a.g.
[x] What is the best quality of a friend: trustworthiness
[x] What friend do you have the most fun with: g.a.g.!!!! i love you girls!

Current mood: awake

Current music: calendar girl-neil sedaka

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Sunday, August 1, 2004

7:21PM - So MuCh fOr My HapPy EnDiNg

sometimes dreams come true, but do they last well i guess i found the answer to that too, NoPe. o well it was fun while it lasted. i really thought we were gunna be togehter but i knew i shouldnt have gotten my hopes up.sometimes i dont want to listen to ppl even when i know there right. it sux but i guess its just life, or my luck. but the one thing i dont understand is how does he know if we have shit in common if we barely talked? ha good question so i think and col too hehe. thanx girls for bein there all those days so i could see him. i love you guys!

Current mood: disappointed

Current music: where are you-j.roman

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11:27AM - TiReD...

i just got home from lisas, and im tryin to waste time till i have to go to my uncles. last night went well girls. we got to BIU' and TIU' hehe and nothin bad went on. i got to see mike and that made me happy. good thing all these parents have been goin out of town hehe. i wish mine would, but im thinkin my house would be a lil harder (stupid neighbors!)anyway im gunna go get ready to go visit the relatives and then come back to clean the car, lisa better help me make it look good hehe! leave one for me xoxo

I'm gonna stay eighteen forever
So we can stay like this forever
And we'll never miss a party
cause we keep them going constantly
(soco ameretto lime-brand new)

Current mood: confused

Current music: Soco Ameretto Lime-Brand New

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Friday, July 30, 2004

12:26AM - --HyPeRaCtiVe--

yay! tonight my mommy let me take the car to the drive in! all tho it wasnt too good of a movie(im sure it was i was lost tho-the bourne supremecy) but it was a fun drive with mardawg. then we all headed to krispy kreme-can ihave a magical moment-blow me! haha good stuff. didnt get to see mike but its ok, i have more days. hopefully me and the girls will get to go to breakfast tomorrow. but im gunna hit the sack love yas.

when we first kissed, my whole body shivered
when your lips touched mine, they quivered

Current mood: awake

Current music: pieces of me-ashlee simpson

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Thursday, July 22, 2004

2:38AM - *LaSt NiGhT*

hehe, another good night for me! this summer is goin pretty good now. me,cath,britt,amy peppi,and lisa went to the mall. it was fun brittney and lisa are soo weird sometimes hehe. my mommy came and picked us up and i went home for a lil. then iwent back to caths and got ready with the girls to try and do something fun. we didnt really do anything but chill. joe macc, tony, and mike w, came to caths and we chilled for a lil then decided to go swimmin by joes. i didnt swim but laura lisa brittney and tony did. i chilled with mike and kinda cath and joe. at around 11:30 joe took us home and me britt cath and lis all slept at caths it was fun. i had a good night :) ! hehe i love you girls. xoxo

Current mood: rushed

Current music: my happy ending-avril lavigne

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Sunday, July 18, 2004

4:37PM - "eMpTy ApArtMeNt"-YeLLoWcArD

call me out
you stayed inside
one you love
is where you hide
shot me down
as i flew by
crash and burn
i think sometimes
you forget where the heart is

answer no, to these questions
let her go, learn a lesson
its not me, your not listening
Now, cant you see somethings missing
you forget where the heart is...

take you away from that empty apartment
you stay and forget where the heart is
someday if ever you love me youd say, its ok...

waking up from this nightmare
hows your life
whats it like there
is it all what you want it to be
does it hurt when you think about me
and how broken my heart is

take you away from that empty apartment
you stay and forget where the heart is
someday if ever you love me youd say, its ok

its ok to be angry and never let go
it only gets harder the more that you know
So, when you get lonely if no ones around
you know that ill catch you when you're falling down
we came together but you left alone
and i know how it feels to walk out on your own
maybe someday i will see you again
and youll look me in my eyes and call me your friend

take you away from that empty apartment
you stay and forget where the heart is
someday if ever you love me youd say, its ok


its ok
its ok

Current mood: confused

Current music: anthem of our dying day

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1:00PM - "BiU bAbii!"

haha, wow were to even start to explain my night. durin the day i went over to katie's for her bday party. it was fun! her cousin was makin us laugh so hard. im glad she invited me i had a good time and got to see the girls. at around 8ish i went home and chilled for a lil. then my dad and i went to pick up britt from work and we came back to my house. we had nothin to do and i wanted to see jeff before he left. :( im gunna miss him! chris and chad came to pick us up and we went there. when we got there, their was a good amount of ppl and then they just kept comin haha! i had so much fun. we got to BIU finally! ive been waitin so long. i had to take care of brittney there were some embarrassing times with her, o man everyone was laughin at her alot haha it was great ilu britt! then at around 12 we had to go becasue we were sleepin by mardawg(thanx for lettin us lol, my mom would of killed me for britt lol! ilu mar!) eric took richard's car and drove us home, that is after we said those million goodbyes, mine a lil longer then britts haha o man good times! :) when we got back to marys brittney crashed and i told mary some good stories! then chris came and got us and took us to wendys some more fun took place there. we met up with mike w. macc and tony but then they had to go home. gary and cam came and i got to go in garys new car! is soo awesome! but marys dad got home from work so we had to leave before we were in big trouble! we got back to mar's and werent very tired and just chilled around for a lil. after talkin and laughin at britt me and mar fell asleep. i must say this was one of my most fun summer days! i hope to have another soon. im gunna miss jeff tho i decided i do like him(As A FRIEND!) hes really nice and i will miss him. thanx jeff for havin us! but hopefully everyone else had an excitin night too! haha! if not sux for u lol. xoxo

Current mood: energetic

Current music: how come-D12 ft. eminem

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Saturday, July 17, 2004

12:58PM - eh!

o man right now i cant move. i think im gunna die! i hate cramps...mar i got to get some of those druggies hehe! tongiht was fun. me mar and lis chilled by lisa for a lil. chris came and got us and we went to togo's for some ice cream. frank(bubba) joined us. (i think he still hates me!) but then me lis and mar went to chris's and watch texas chain saw massacre. stupid mary got scarred and called her mommy(BaBy!) chris drove us home, and now im not feelin too good, but cant go to sleep cause then ill feel worse. im so tired tho. i might have nightmares so maybe i shouldnt go to sleep. haha! xoxo

Current mood: sick

Current music: none

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Friday, July 16, 2004

1:40AM - FuN!

today was a good summer day. i had laura,concetta,lisa,and mary over to swim.we wanted a slip and slide so we made our own using some huge bubble wrap lisa had, and the stakes of my tent hehe. it went well (hint:soap makes u go far!) then we headed into the pool,we had some fun with the "torpedo" hehe! after that we had some food mmm! concet left and the girls came into the house, man did they see a "t.v. show" haha u guys r so funny. my family is crazii and the girls just think its so funny when we fight and shit. laur n mar were dyin of laughter...i guess u had to be there lol. then they went to marys and blasted some music while i got ready to go out with col and pen and some unexpected guest of penny noelle and her cousin,there fun so i dindt care! we went to the glendale heights fest for some food.(i didnt eat so i cant say it was good hehe) then we headed back to a*town. we were tryin to find something to do and ended up at madballs. not to shabby there either. saw glenn richard kyle madball and vinnie. then i went home. not to bad of a nite. i got home and talked with mommy for a lil man do i love her hehe. shes like my bestest friend, a mom everyone wished they had. i love you mom! hehe. and then i decided to play some super nitendo since lisa helped me today hehe! thanx u! but hope everyone else had a good day like i did if not,...TOO BAD! xoxo

Current mood: determined

Current music: Super Nitendo Songs (stuck in my brain!)

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Tuesday, July 13, 2004

12:42PM - HoTt DaY!

today was another fun day. i woke up and went to behind the wheel nice and early in the mornin, only 1 more!!! then went home and took a nap till about 12. then my mommy drove me over to caths and i waited for her and mary to get ready. we had a very long walk to get caths nails done, and it was extremely hot! then since we got to lazii to walk to get something to eat, my mom came and got us to get burger king. the girls went back to caths and i went home for dinner. i took another nap hehe i love to sleep, and woke at 6 got ready for a fun night and took a stroll back to caths(at least the weather cooled down.) then me cath mar laur and mon went to mar's to get change of clothes. then we went to uncle harry's (those good old times. then we all went to britts with the i*town boys(there crazii!) then me and mon went to visit peter,jon,doug,mike,jason,nicki,and ricky at 7-11! i was happy to see them. mon then dropped my off at britts and we chilled there for the rest of the night. lisas mommy came and got us and now im home for the night, kinda tired, kinda hyper, kinda upset, but u know no one gets there way. but hopefully ill get some color tomorow to make me happy. g-nite

Current mood: guilty

Current music: subway commercial(weiro's!)

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Sunday, July 11, 2004

11:56AM - yAy a NeW jOuRnaL!!!

yay! my first day with this journal thingy! i had a pretty fun day today. i woke up from eva's around 12 and she dropped me off at home around 1ish maybe a lil earlier. i talked to brittney and we decided on a time to go to Chris's graduation party. so i showered and got ready, and my mom drove me lisa and britt over to Sima's. we chilled by his for a lil, and decided it was way to hott to not go swimming! so of course we all did(i wasted hrs on my hair :(!!!) but it was worth it. then we got cold from his freezing pool and decided to spend a few minutes all in his bathroom. we danced, and chilled for a while more and walked over to britts around 7:15ish. we chilled there for the rest of the night till we decided to go see spider-man2. on the way to change with cath and amy we got in a lil problem(ilu amy!) and decided not to go no more. so i went home after a lil and decided to make one of these journal thingys! thanx dan hehe. now im just chillin here talkin to dan and toner about some stuff! but hopefully ill have another fun day tomorrow.
2-3 more weeks till my license!!!

Current mood: tired

Current music: it dont get no better?(some ghetto stuff lol)

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